Well Shit

thats kinda how i have felt this last week. Its just wierd I am not sure how to feel anymore because things that i want to work out are not. Things that i never expected to happen are happening.

Got a call today from the race team that I work for part time asking me if i would maybe wanna work at the shop as well as traveling with them like I do. It is just something I am gonna have to sleep on and think about.

This next weekend should be fun, I have my nieces birthday to go to Saturday. I also plan on lowering my car a little more. Other than that just have fun and be happy I guess. Being happy these last few weeks has been a little hard. There are things that I want to change and no matter how hard I try it just doesnt seem to work, it is very frustrating.

I went out with some friends tonight, well i guess you would call it a double date that i got suckered into some how. Not sure how it just happend i guess. I had fun met some new people that seem pretty awesome. Hung out with a friend that i havent seen in a while so that was nice.

Its really wierd all this week i have just been in a od mood and thinking a lot about everything. I am not sure it just feels like there is something missing and I have an idea what it is but I have been working on it for 2 years now and I just cant change it or make it change. I am not sure if it will even be the same anymore if i can change it.

what do you do

So this past week has had its ups and downs.....

So all this week I have been asking the same question in my head over and over and that is what do you do. Lets see how do i start this.....

I got a phone call on Monday about a friend that has wasted his life with drugs. Me and my other friend are wondering how do we help. and at this point we have worked on it and it seems the harder we try the more it pushes him away. So now i find myself asking what do you do? Nothing, that's all we can do at this point he doesn't want to listen and realize he needs help and he needs to figure it out himself.

I moved into my new place and i love it. Its so much better than the last place its not hot all the time. I also am working on my room and what i do to it.... I have some stuff up on the walls but I want more. I am also not sure what i am gonna do for lighting, I was thinking Christmas lights around the top of the walls. that seems like and fun cool idea, but i am not sure yet.

Now this is the tricky part I have had one thing on my mind most of this week. Probably the only good thing that i have been thinking about most. I am not sure what to do either.... I don't know because to be honest I have never felt this way ever. That is not a bad thing either. Its just so strange how one day life throws you some random thing and everything can change in a matter of seconds.... I just wish I could figure it out and I am sure the answer will come with time, but I know that whatever the outcome is its for the best.

I also went out tonight with the miata guys(no i am not gay) for a photo shoot and that was fun just being around awesome people and having a good time. I also keep thinking about D.C. and moving to start my train job. I just hope that is what the future has in store for me as well as some other things.

I am gonna start to post pictures of things so you guys know what I am talking about with this blog. Also was thinking of updating it more that just weekly not sure yet but you will know when that happens if you follow it.

Why things happen

So this is my first post, I am gonna just go over the last week.

Well it has been very interesting and kind of an eye opener. This week and the last few days all I have been thinking about is why things happen, is it for the good or bad, will it work out or not, or am i just crazy. My roommate and good friend left today for VA. There is another person that leaves tomorrow that i know i will miss for sure. Its just weird how life throws really random things and then you wonder should i follow it and try to see what happens or just let it go and forget it. So with this one I am gonna try to follow it and see where it ends up. I just hope no matter what happens the end result is for the best and I know it will be.

Now the other problem is work, I have a job that is kinda cool but its not what i want to do. I wanna work for any railroad at this point. Its just finding that job..... But i am a firm believer in signs and well my last job was kinda by train tracks and my new job now has some right behind work. I am thinking this might be a sign that i am getting closer to my train job. That may sound crazy to you but not me.

I also will be moving this week but I am not leaving Fl(soon though). I am moving down the street to a apartment. It will be fun the new roommates are awesome and good people. So that i am excited about and leaving my old hot house that i am in now. I will miss my room with its sweet view.

that is it for now